I've never been good at goodbyes.
I prefer to just sneak out of gatherings then announce that I'm leaving. It may be rude but I just don't like the awkwardness of saying goodbye.
A couple of months ago Barb left. What do you do when you're saying goodbye to your best friend? Tell them how much they mean to you or pretend like it's just another day and give them a "see you later" and wave them off down the street. I did the latter...then burst into tears as she and her boys drove away in their truck.
Heidi left. Another blow. I am officially friendless. I have friends...but my sisters,...my "family" is gone.
We met when she moved here almost four years ago. We have a history. I drove her to the hospital to have Ashlyn. She cried with me when my sister passed away. I frantically called her husband Ryan every time Brock dislocated his arm or when he almost bit his tongue in half. Our ER bills are going to double now that they're gone. We spent every holiday together. We would text and say meet at the beach and know that we would show up at our "spot". Friday nights was game night...juggling babies and junk food while trying to play cards.
The Clarks came over for one last dinner before they left. Heidi would break into tears intermittently at dinner while I would burst into a nervous woodpecker laugh to cover up the emotions that I was afraid would surface.
It sucks. I hate that word...but it does.
Our last picture...with our crazy uncooperating kids.
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I am totally crying inside for you. I have read so much about these 2 girls and I can't imagine how hard this must be. So sorry. I know they can't be replaced, but hopefully you will find someone else just like them.
ps this is the most I have seen of your home and it is BEAUTIFUL!!!! I love your decorating. (Totally off the subject) Want to help me when you come?? LOVE IT!
Christy,
I am so sorry - sometimes it hurts just as much to lose our friends as it does when family leaves.
But what I am most sorry about is that you lost your sister. I didn't know this about you - I lost my 32 year old sister last June (2009). So I really can tell you that I know what you are feeling. I know about the hole in your heart that will never be filled back up and that somedays feels like it is leaking and you can't stop it. So sad....
I have been putting off doing this post forever. I didn't think I could take it. I cry at the drop of a dime lately and I really think it is just residual sadness over leaving you and Florida. I miss you guys so much! Ash started talking about Brock the other day and it just was so sweet and so sad at the same time.
Autumn,
I didn't know you lost your sister too. Yeah, I keep telling myself it's fine and that I'm over it but reality is that it still hurts a lot sometimes. Your sister was young too. It is hard...especially since it's June. That's when my sister passed also.
Christy
I'm so sorry for you! I'm totally like you with saying goodbye though too, but I'd also be bawling in addition to the awkward laughs. Love ya Christy.
So sad! I think that is why I am scared to move any where again. I have such good friends here and my kids are best friends with their kids. I used to be so free to moving any where, but now I am just plain scared. My heart goes out to you! Love ya girl!!
Christy,
Miss you! Love you! I'm thinking of you because it is June and I was the WORST friend ever when your sister passed, not in florida and completely disconnected from everything that was going on there. I cant imagine how it would feel to lose a sister, I'm sure it will always hurt.
I am sick for you right now with Heidi gone! Friends like that aren't easy to come by. Cant wait to see you in a couple weeks!!
I am sorry they both left, it's so hard to lose good friends!! You are so easy to talk to and I have no doubt that you will make new ones. But still I feel your pain!
Christy, that first picture makes me laugh because Brock is holding his face like something is so horribly wrong. Axton does that too when he's crying and I can't figure out where he got it from. I'm pretty sure he's never seen anyone cry like that.
??? Kids are weird. Brock is adorable. I'm so sorry your friends moved away. :(
In our early marriage we moved a lot. I remember many times, announcing tearfully in church that we were moving and then crying as we crossed state lines. But every move brought new friends and new experiences that I needed.
Nowadays, it's so much easier to keep in touch and nurture those friendships, with the internet and unlimited long distance (gee, I sound like a granny!)
I know how you feel and it's hard. But work to keep those friendships up!
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